1/13/19 I haven't been able to sleep well for a week or so. I can be exhausted, but my brain races for hours. It's been so frustrating and exhausting. Thursday night I had so many things racing through my head as I was finally seeing things coming together and I just started writing them all . . .
1/10/19 Well, it's official. I'm now employed by my school district. I'm so excited to be employed again, but so nervous about the logistics of it all. My almost 3 year old will need on-the-fly childcare and I will need to make some kind of adjustment to my kindergartner's pick-up routine. I also . . .
12/15/18 I have now had a second 6 week follow-up since beginning my antidepressants. Things are going well. I feel so much more myself than I have in a long time. It almost feels like I could wean off of them, but I know they are working and the hardest season of the year for depression is . . .
We all hit these walls in our lives where we just want to stop. We need a break. A vacation. A change of pace. As a stay at home mom to two boys, 5 and 2, I'm tired. I'm a bit lonely (because who doesn't want deeper conversation than most 2 year olds can provide?) and I'm ready for a bit of a change . . .
11/29/18 In one hour and ten minutes I will be 32. Some days I truly feel like I've missed any chance to be who I am meant to be. Other days, like yesterday, I'm reminded that it is both okay not to find your calling until 40+ and that I am on my way there; wherever there is. I haven't been . . .
11/16/18 Today was the first day since quitting my side hustles that I've taken time to sit down and set goals. Goals for myself and my blog - this blog. It felt so good to feel good enough to want to try setting goals; even if they were just small, personal goals. It was good to set goals that . . .
11/1/18 My 6 week recheck was yesterday, on Halloween. She listed me as having intermittent improvement. The last couple of weeks have been stressful. My car was leaking lots of oil, and I was told repair would be $2-3k and replacing it would be nearer $8k. The car isn't even worth that much. . . .
10/14/18 It's been almost a month. Almost a month without any direct sales businesses. Almost a month of life and family gatherings and trials and financial struggle. It's been almost a month and I'm already grateful for my decision to talk to my doctor about antidepressants and shut . . .
9/19/18 Today begins a new journey; one that includes medication. One that I am hoping helps me move forward with more energy. Energy so I can smile more and be more easily filled by social interactions again. It's a little scary to start medication. Reading about possible side effects is . . .
9/16/18 Today I spoke boldly in front of my church congregation. I read a previous blog post, The Sheep Dog & The Sheep, for everyone to hear. It was scary. I said some things that probably hurt feelings. But I'm hoping the tough love I put into it was received in love, the way it was . . .