1/13/19 I haven't been able to sleep well for a week or so. I can be exhausted, but my brain races for hours. It's been so frustrating and exhausting. Thursday night I had so many things racing through my head as I was finally seeing things coming together and I just started writing them all . . .
1/10/19 Well, it's official. I'm now employed by my school district. I'm so excited to be employed again, but so nervous about the logistics of it all. My almost 3 year old will need on-the-fly childcare and I will need to make some kind of adjustment to my kindergartner's pick-up routine. I also . . .
12/15/18 I have now had a second 6 week follow-up since beginning my antidepressants. Things are going well. I feel so much more myself than I have in a long time. It almost feels like I could wean off of them, but I know they are working and the hardest season of the year for depression is . . .
11/29/18 In one hour and ten minutes I will be 32. Some days I truly feel like I've missed any chance to be who I am meant to be. Other days, like yesterday, I'm reminded that it is both okay not to find your calling until 40+ and that I am on my way there; wherever there is. I haven't been . . .
11/16/18 Today was the first day since quitting my side hustles that I've taken time to sit down and set goals. Goals for myself and my blog - this blog. It felt so good to feel good enough to want to try setting goals; even if they were just small, personal goals. It was good to set goals that . . .
11/1/18 My 6 week recheck was yesterday, on Halloween. She listed me as having intermittent improvement. The last couple of weeks have been stressful. My car was leaking lots of oil, and I was told repair would be $2-3k and replacing it would be nearer $8k. The car isn't even worth that much. . . .
10/14/18 It's been almost a month. Almost a month without any direct sales businesses. Almost a month of life and family gatherings and trials and financial struggle. It's been almost a month and I'm already grateful for my decision to talk to my doctor about antidepressants and shut . . .
9/19/18 Today begins a new journey; one that includes medication. One that I am hoping helps me move forward with more energy. Energy so I can smile more and be more easily filled by social interactions again. It's a little scary to start medication. Reading about possible side effects is . . .
9/16/18 Today I spoke boldly in front of my church congregation. I read a previous blog post, The Sheep Dog & The Sheep, for everyone to hear. It was scary. I said some things that probably hurt feelings. But I'm hoping the tough love I put into it was received in love, the way it was . . .
9/15/18 I'm still waiting on bloodwork results - maybe up to three more days. But, I'm finding I'm a feeling a little lighter each day now that I've named my enemy and have sought help. I've actually had an unexpected increase in energy that has allowed me to clean my kitchen, living room, and my . . .