I haven’t been able to sleep well for a week or so. I can be exhausted, but my brain races for hours. It’s been so frustrating and exhausting. Thursday night I had so many things racing through my head as I was finally seeing things coming together and I just started writing them all down.
Brain dump = Sleep
I brain-dumped for something like 30-45 minutes. Planning for blog one and blog two and posts for blog one and social media strategies were written down. I filled 5-6 pages in my notebook and when I finished I was so tired and so very ready for bed.
It’s amazing how good that felt. It was like a
weight super energized source could finally unplug and slow down. Like, I wish I could bottle that feeling.
Now that I got all of that info out of my head, I have a plan and I’m at the point of executing this plan. This is my Achilles heel. I normally freeze, over analyze, and then come down with a debilitating case of analysis paralysis. This is the point at which all of my previous big ideas fade into the background and eventually are forgotten.
Time to change the cycle
I need to change this pattern. I have a plan to do something; something big. Something that reaches people. I want to help people, to inspire people. My life is far from glamorous, and truthfully that’s not my aim, but I would like to build a life that’s more comfortable. As of right now, I think “comfortable” looks like peace in my soul, though financial peace of mind would be nice. Being abel to quit playing that monthly game of “which bill can I not pay in full and not end up in trouble or in collections over” is definitely a goal of mine some day.
Well these posts I have planned won’t write themselves, so I should probably get back to work.
Go confidently in the direction of your dreams.
Live the life you have imagined.Henry David Thoreau
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