Well, it’s official. I’m now employed by my school district. I’m so excited to be employed again, but so nervous about the logistics of it all. My almost 3 year old will need on-the-fly childcare and I will need to make some kind of adjustment to my kindergartner’s pick-up routine. I also need to work on my wardrobe because I am sorely missing work attire.
I really am excited to be in the system for the district. The hope is that I will be able to work my way into a full time position sooner than later.
Mom life is stressful
Yesterday was stressful. My youngest (the almost 3 year old) was complaining about pain near his inner, left hip joint. The soft tissue of his lower abdominal wall felt swollen, or at least larger than the other side, so I called his doc since his older brother and their dad have both had hernias and truthfully, that was my immediate concern.
We got a same-day appointment and upon examination she agreed that she felt something and he complained a little when she palpated the area. So, she sent us across the street to the hospital for an ultrasound. That didn’t give us any real answers either as it showed no real reason for the difference that even the ultrasound radiologist felt. She couldn’t explain it. So, I’m waiting until our physicals on Monday to talk to our doc about it some more.
I know my depression doesn’t manifest anxiety much, but yesterday was a worrisome day for sure – and leaving without an explanation didn’t help much. I am so grateful for no emergency surgery though.
Overall my depression has been much better lately. I’ve had a few days of major irrational irritability – which was a big symptom for me. They aren’t as frequent as they were, and I can usually get myself to pause and find a new approach before reacting and yelling at my kids. I hate yelling like that so this has brought me comfort to see improvement. I’d like to improve more, so I’ll keep working on it.
Slowly working toward these goals
Today was also good for many other reasons. I got in touch with the coach at a nearby middle school and asked if I could help her in anticipation of starting a program. She seemed excited about the idea, so I hope it works out.
I really am very excited about the idea of getting volleyball started at our local junior high school and I think getting some help assisting at another school should only help me when it comes to convincing the school district about this addition to the school.
It’s been a bit of a wild few days, so I’m a bit scattered. Sorry to be bouncing around everywhere but it was a packed first week back in school for the kiddos.
The first step toward getting somewhere
is to decide that you are
not going to stay where you are.
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