I have now had a second 6 week follow-up since beginning my antidepressants. Things are going well. I feel so much more myself than I have in a long time. It almost feels like I could wean off of them, but I know they are working and the hardest season of the year for depression is closing in on us. So, I told my doc that I want to reconsider weaning off this spring. I really need to make sure I can survive the winter months.
Working toward goals again
I finally got a chance to talk to the principal at the junior high more thoroughly and she said the only current sports that are sponsored by the junior high are the boys and girls basketball teams. Baseball, softball, boys and girls soccer, and track are all currently club teams for junior high age kids that compete against other junior high schools in their seasons, but they aren’t actually school sponsored.
She is a new principal for the school and isn’t sure what makes a sport eligible for school sponsorship. So, I figure I can call the other junior highs that compete on the basketball schedule and see what their schools do for their sports programs. See how they get them added as official sports versus clubs that play in the building. See what it takes to convince their school systems to add a club team. Without football I’m not sure if there will be a boy sport we can add opposite volleyball to fulfill the Title IX requirements, but I will ask the other schools how they handle that as well.
Life keeps going
My husband and I were also talking about life and finances recently. I’ve been pretty dead set on waiting until our 2yo is in pre school or kindergarten before I consider going back to work, but lately I am thinking I might need to look into that a bit sooner than later. So, I reached out to my friends at my last job to see if any departments were hiring. I then cleaned up my resume and applied for one of the positions.
The company is fairly flexible, but I worry that the job will be a bit too rigorous for us to figure out childcare for my youngest and then figure out after school care for the oldest until my husband or I can go get them both. I have some flexibility to work from home, but I’m not sure how often they will want to allow that, or if I will be able to split my hours so I have time in the afternoons and evenings to coach volleyball, attend sporting events for the boys, and just be able to spend time with them. I would like to be able to finish my hours after they are in bed.
The other job I’m going to look at applying for is substitute teaching. See, if I can earn a little credibility, maybe I can apply for an office position in the school system. Then I would at least be on a similar schedule to my kindergartner, and we’d still all get summer together. I think it would be a softer transition for our family and less of a burden overall; even if the pay would be a lot less initially.
I’m still mulling it all over. But, because my husband barely makes enough for us to cover our bills, I have to consider working again. So, here I am… considering it and researching it.
Sometimes, the strength within you is not a big fiery flame for all to see. It is just a tiny spark that whispers softly “You got this, keep going.”
Did you ever stay home with your kids? Did you ever go back to work after being home for a few years? How did all of that work out for you. I’d really love to hear about it.
Want to follow my journey navigating depression? You can find all of the info here, from the beginning, and follow along as I continue along this path of caring for my mental health.