I think it’s finally time for me to admit to myself that if I don’t make some changes my sub-clinical depression is going to escalate into depression that needs real, medical attention. I’ve been debating help and will be talking to my doctor about it at my next visit, but I’m not ready to schedule a special appointment for it.
Why I’m debating help
I’ve been trying to work direct sales businesses for about a year and a half. While I’ve had some success, it hasn’t been as much as I’d hoped – which I know is all in how I work them. I’ve tried several companies; each was an attempt to figure out if I was passionate about any of the products. None of them were “it.” I think a lot of it is also that I’ve been sub-clinically depressed, or at least on the cusp of this feeling for almost a year. And how do you find your passion for anything when you don’t feel like yourself?
I’ve found ways to mute the feelings for a while, and smile, but once the activity or event ends the feelings return and my energy level drops and my motivation evaporates.
Acknowledging all of this is something, but I’m really not sure what this means for my future and my mental health as a whole. I guess we will see.
Be still. Let go, and let God.Psalm 46:10
Joyful thought of the day: Recognizing something isn’t right and feeling glad that I’m not simply imagining this.
Want to follow my journey navigating depression? You can find all of the info here, from the beginning, and follow along as I continue along this path of caring for my mental health.
Has depression impacted your life, or are you unsure if you need help? Feel free to contact me or leave a comment and begin some dialogue. There’s no need to suffer alone.