It’s been almost a month.
Almost a month without any direct sales businesses.
Almost a month of life and family gatherings and trials and financial struggle.
It’s been almost a month and I’m already grateful for my decision to talk to my doctor about antidepressants and shut down work that did more harm than good. So, how can I not be happy about this?
It’s been almost a month, and I’m already sure I made the right decision.
How can this change the future?
My future feels full of hope. For the first time in too long, I finally feel semi-human again. I don’t feel like I’m failing my kids. How could I be a good mom if I didn’t even want to get out of bed for myself? The sun would be shining, the kids would be happy and playing, and all I wanted to do was go and hide somewhere. Away from people.
I’m an extrovert. Life has taught me to hold back so I don’t frighten those around me, but I really enjoy making friends and building relationships. For months, I’ve wanted nothing more than to cling to a couple of relationships and hide from the rest. I felt the life slowly seeping away from me. Never hopeless or suicidal, but I certainly wasn’t the adventurous woman from my past.
I’m finally seeing glimpses of that former self coming back. The metaphorical clouds are parting and the sunshine is peeking in. Hope has returned with more force than I could have even dreamt I was missing in the first place.
Forget what is behind
and strain toward what is ahead.Philippians 3:13
Want to follow my journey navigating depression? You can find all of the info here, from the beginning, and follow along as I continue along this path of caring for my mental health.
Has depression impacted your life, or are you unsure if you need help? Feel free to contact me or leave a comment and begin some dialogue. There’s no need to suffer alone.